Mad = Immaturity?

I'm mad.

- Ann-Marie the singer, actor, dancer!
More like the brick with no talent aka: the troll.

- Lately I've been more and more upset, which leads me to find a quick solution which I can only describe as immaturity.
I never really had a rebellious cycle in life where I would fight with my parents or anything. Yet lately I've been finding it easy and simple to tell my parents off when they ask me a question. In my head I know I sound like a brat and that they're only helping me, but for some reason it bothers me SO much that I can't always control the way I say things.

- I have a friend who is distancing them self from me because I say things without thinking them fully through and hurt them - and even when I do think them through (over and over again almost everyday) it still seems to attack them in some way. Which to me is crap. Now I feel like every time we talk I'm treading on glass hoping that in some way, shape or form I don't do ANYTHING that will lead to disaster. Do I still want to be friends? Yes. That bad? I don't know. But at least I AM trying.

- Why should I pretend to be nice to someone who I don't like or want to be friends with. You are annoying, stupid and every time we talk I like you less. I don't want to see a movie with you. I don't want to plan parties with you. I really don't want to talk to you. And I really don't care how your doing.

- If you have a comment, whether it be negative or positive, just say it the way you mean it. Don't beat around the bush trying to make me decipher what your actually trying to say!!!!!!!
Did I over sing the song? JUST TELL ME!
Am I a crap of a friend? JUST TELL ME!
Do you not like the way I talk? JUST TELL ME!
Am I a horrible son? JUST TELL ME!
Do you not want to hang out? JUST TELL ME!
Do you not actually want to be friends? PLEASE JUST TELL ME!

I'm selfish, obsessive, immature, and hurtful and yet I'm trying my best.
Get over it please, because I'm past all of this.

Yes I'm like an angry child.

Josh

p.s. I might delete this eventually. I only wrote this to let out my anger - soon I'll realize how embarrassing it is.

Silvercity Update!

So I was planning to bring you guys SO much new information LAST WEEK.
Then I got busy with work.
Funny how that happens.

Anyway I've come realize a few things while at work:
- I LOVE working at Silvercity Coquitlam (in fact I didn't want to leave last Saturday)

- NOBODY likes Ann-Marie (I was on my break in the Cast Room and she walked
in and everyone fell silent)

- In the Cast Room there is a poster on the wall advertising a contest to carry the torch in the 2010 Olympics and my friend is right on the front (y a y extra work!)


- Belinda's parents own a restaurant by ABC Family and she introduced them to me. A certain boy looked familiar so I said so. It was Asian Emo Boy (if you look back at my blog, 10 New Employees, I have him down as perhaps related to Belinda). I had asked her about him last week and she denied she even knew who he was. TURNS out they ARE brother and sister and she only told us she didn't know him because she thought we weren't allowed to bring anyone on the tour! I assured her that it was okay.

- The managers name I can never remember is Farnaz (took me a minute to remember just now!)

- There is a Jenny and and Asian Jenny.

- Most people I don't know, know my name (creepy, I usually ignore them thinking they are talking to another Josh)

Ack! I have to go to work now! Jaclyn is picking me up! CIAO!

Josh

Happy Belated V-Day!

I was peppy the whole time!

First shift ever!!!
Gosh was it fun! I was a runner, which means I grabbed stuff for the people who worked the tills (of which I hope to never work at!). It was so fun, it's like I'm running to the back room and trying to avoid many moving obstacles while making jokes and forming friendships with them! Could a job get any better?
I honestly thought I didn't like people.
For the first hour I worked with Jaclyn and Jacqueline (okay more like I just talked with them) and T.K. (who by the way has a friend from school who works there and they both kinda act the same except T.K. is just a nicer person) and Rachel (whom I've learnt is close friends with Jenny, who is really annoying, but prefers listening to me instead! Word of advice - Shut your trap Jenny!)

NEW CHARACTERS!
- I met this girl Ann-Marie who I thought was super cool at first because she likes Twilight. MISLEADING!!! She's bossy (in a rude non-helpful way) and she totally thinks she's a manager or something and tells everyone what to do (even the people who have been there longer than her!) MORE TO COME!
p.s. No one really likes her. Plus we need a villain to this story.
- Stephenie looked familiar and I instantly knew I'd seen her on set before so we easily bonded over that fact. Doesn't appear to have many friends so naturally I adopted her into my circle.
- I always forget how to say her name. Farsha? Shafar? Fashi? (I PROMISE I'll remember next time!) She's one of the managers and the orientation trainer. Such a nice girl.
- The other manager Brandon (I got a bad first impression of him. Luckily I ask a hundred million question, am eager, and I ALWAYS thank people when they tell me how to do something even if I've heard it a hundred times). Which in turn softened me up to his dedicated managing skills.

SUPPORTING CAST!
- Keireen (Karen) Lee (worked her last day with me as her personal runner! Friendship continues through msn form!)
- Jevin (has a weird name and knows it, short and wide)
- Robert (tall and thin, hangs out with Jevin!!! How does that even happen!!!)
- T.K.'s Friend (actually not as bad as I'll make him out to be, since he WAS just being helpful. Had the worst customers. Apparently can speak close to the same language as T.K.)

Side note: They didn't have any new shirts or hats so I had to wear an old style shirt (that's gone out of print) and a pizza/pizza hat! And my name tag says my favourite movie is HSM3! Represent!

Josh

p.s. I hope none of these people ever read my blog...

Down to 11?

First day of training! Kinda lame, but at least I was able to ask questions that I had about my new "workmates"! It was pretty boring, except for these three "bad" workers that decided to crash the training sessions. They basically told us to quit now because the job was so crappy and so on and so forth. VERY HIGH SCHOOL. VERY INAPPROPRIATE. Apparently (according to the Trainer) they aren't going anywhere in life!

So there was ten of us on Friday and two more joined our group today so that SHOULD equal 12, yet they were only expecting 11. And Loud Mouth, Friend of Loud Mouth and Asian Emo Boy never showed up leaving us with 9 at training.

Of course I sat beside Jaclyn and I found out more names! Goal #1 complete!
- Mousy Girl is actually Jacqueline (don't actually know her from anywhere, spoke a little more today.)
-Dedicated Hard-Worker Girl is actually Rachel (super mature for an 18 year old, tried to make more conversations with her today. Need to keep her close because I know she'll be a loyal back-up)
- RPG Boy is Alex (has been a PA on movie sets and used to work at the Superstore next door. ALSO he's 23, making him the oldest of us haha!)
- Typical High School Girl also known as Belinda (prettier today than Friday. Must be popular! Laughed at all the jokes the "bad workers" made, but she IS 17)
-Don't forget Jessica (smoker! Gross I know, but she totally needs me and Jaclyn as her friends and she's easy to talk to)
- We think Loud Mouth and Friend we're fired because they were high and obnoxious on Friday! How exciting!


TWO NEW KIDS
Jenny (kinda boring. Used to be hard core with sports.)
T.K. (European refugee! I know right?! Didn't say much, but kept giving me looks - which I accepted since I did most of the talking...)


p.s. Used my free movies pass today and saw Paul Blart: Mall Cop. Please don't see it if you would like to avoid an hour and a half of stupidity.


Josh