Starting Over

I can do this, right? Do over!

Firstly,

It's been so long and I left you on a bad note. My dear blog I'm sorry.
It took a while to find myself, and as lame as it is to admit, even though it felt like my life had stopped that there couldn't be anything more important - really? It goes on. With or without me. I've forgiven and forgotten.

And secondly,

A few days ago I told my friend every secret I had about myself. Everything I've been embarrassed or ashamed to tell people. Some of them physical imperfections and others spiritual.
I couldn't stop laughing because I couldn't believe that I could tell someone about the darkness in my life - the things holding me back. Yet as soon as I revealed the shadows I felt better. Relieved even.
I've been working on not being embarrassed. If nothing but embarrassment is going to holding me back then I can do anything, right?

So what is Josh now?

I'm someone full of contradictions. Who wants goodness more than anything. Selfish and rude at times. Knows what his priorities are and continuously forgets. Still wishing for world peace, but fully aware that he will soon live in a place where it's possible and not just a wish. Self conscious yet a little less caring. Simple with a thousand rules.
Trying to do my best which is all that is asked of me.

Hopefully less about me and my drama after this post.
But don't forget who writes this blog and what it's all about.



Remember my name,

Josh