Saturday, August 15, 2009

Starting Over

I can do this, right? Do over!


It's been so long and I left you on a bad note. My dear blog I'm sorry.
It took a while to find myself, and as lame as it is to admit, even though it felt like my life had stopped that there couldn't be anything more important - really? It goes on. With or without me. I've forgiven and forgotten.

And secondly,

A few days ago I told my friend every secret I had about myself. Everything I've been embarrassed or ashamed to tell people. Some of them physical imperfections and others spiritual.
I couldn't stop laughing because I couldn't believe that I could tell someone about the darkness in my life - the things holding me back. Yet as soon as I revealed the shadows I felt better. Relieved even.
I've been working on not being embarrassed. If nothing but embarrassment is going to holding me back then I can do anything, right?

So what is Josh now?

I'm someone full of contradictions. Who wants goodness more than anything. Selfish and rude at times. Knows what his priorities are and continuously forgets. Still wishing for world peace, but fully aware that he will soon live in a place where it's possible and not just a wish. Self conscious yet a little less caring. Simple with a thousand rules.
Trying to do my best which is all that is asked of me.

Hopefully less about me and my drama after this post.
But don't forget who writes this blog and what it's all about.

Remember my name,



Purplestamper said...

I will remember your name. Good for you Josh, to start over...take a breath, and FROG. Fully Rely on GOD. Easier said than done...I KNOW. Thanks for the new has been way toooooooo lonnnnnnggggg.

Jamie McCarthy said...

Welcome back to the blog word Josh! New starts are always good.

Just thought I'd let you know two things:

1) I am going to see (500) Days of Summer tomorrow.

2) I have awarded you the Honest Scrap Award. Read about it here:

Deanna-Michelle said...

My dear dear friend Josh, it's good to see you blogging again. Remember God (and us, your friends) love you no matter what. No matter what you think your imperfections are...those are what makes you special. It was good seeing you yesterday. Talk to you soon.

maya said...

preach it! i'm glad your back.